Shelly you are so sweet. It's going to be ok. Give it a chance to work. You sound so defeated and you haven't even started the race yet! I can't wait until you lose your first 5lbs. Just give it a chance and stay dedicated. I can tell that you are serious about getting the weight off and that's what it's going to take to get it off. You have to really want it and I know that you do. With that kind of determination you can't lose.