One of my buddies talked about bikinis and it got me thinking...I realized that since I was a kid I've never worn a swimsuit to the beach. Even was I was in the best shape of my life I didn't have the confidence to wear even a one piece. I lived in Hawaii, and not everyone that goes to the beach is skinny, but so many people that are overweight wore bikinis...and I guess it has to do with confidence. Idk why, but this one particular lady has stuck in my mind. She was pretty heavy, and was wearing small shorts and a bikini top...and all I could think of was how confident she seemed, and even though she was heavy she wore it well. I don't think she cared about anything at the moment except enjoying herself with her baby. I think my lack of self confidence holds me back...right now I can easily blame my weight on so much...why ppl don't talk to me, why I can't get a job ect...but if I'm thin what do I have to blame, but myself.
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