Mama Pajama's Journal, 10 Apr 19

so, this is bullshit. I've been starving and depriving myself for two weeks now, against the better judgement of my therapist and the nurse at the gyno's office, and my own kid, among others, and while I had some success last week, it did not translate over this week. now I have to wonder how much damage listening to my stupid doctor has done to me, and how I'm going to fix it. I want to eat everything in the house, now, but I also never want to eat again, since 'anorexia brain' took over (thanks a lot, doc), and I am ONCE AGAIN out to sea, without a life raft, and I just want to cry and scream, and give up. I WISH THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO CARED ENOUGH TO BE A VOICE IN THE DARK, BUT I GUESS THAT'S TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR!!!
106.1 kg Lost so far: 4.1 kg.    Still to go: 51.7 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

View Diet Calendar, 10 April 2019:
1098 kcal Fat: 45.68g | Prot: 39.91g | Carbs: 135.59g.   Breakfast: Bragg Organic Apple Cider Vinegar, Turmeric (Ground), Ginger, Maple Syrup, Lemon Juice, Black Pepper, Cinnamon. Snacks/Other: Athenos Natural Crumbled Feta Cheese, Newman's Own All Natural Chunky Salsa (Medium), Kroger Corn Tortillas, Pirate's Booty Baked Rice and Corn Puffs - Aged White Cheddar, Pepperidge Farm Milano Cookies - Lemon Chocolate, Haagen-Dazs Chocolate Ice Cream, Freihofer's Stone Ground 100% Whole Wheat Bread, Cabot Vermont Seriously Sharp White Cheddar Cheese, Cedar's Garlic Lovers Hommus, Yellow Sweet Peppers. more...
4489 kcal Exercise: Yoga - 15 minutes, Watching TV/Computer - 15 hours, Hanging Laundry - 10 minutes, Sitting - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Driving - 45 minutes, Sleeping - 6 hours, Resting - 20 minutes. more...
Losing 0.5 kg a Week

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omg...thank you so much, everyone - I had no idea people were leaving comments of support! I have to take the time to read them all, and get back on track...I sort of fell off after that appointment (major setback, thanks Doc), and I'm working to get back to it. thanks so much, this helps. 
14 Apr 19 by member: Mama Pajama

     
 

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