erin74kr's Journal, 08 Jul 10

looks delicious :)... i read your previous journal too, and i've dealt with social anxiety issues since i was in my pre-teens.. i've always been heavy even since then and hated to be out in public, like everyone is watching me laughing.. that lasted all the way thru till about my sophomore year of highschool when i stopped caring what people thought and started finding the real me. but after the birth of my daughter it came back and hasn't really left.. not so much a fear of what people are thinking.. but being around large groups of people and stress is harder to deal with. so when my weight became an issue again, i tend to take it harder making dieting and working out harder to do. even today i didn't lose as much as i would like, but i'm learning to accept everything and just keep moving in the right direction.. i know exactly what u were talking about when u looked in teh mirror and saw the same girl.. i never even realized i'd allowed myself to be 233 lbs.. and after losing 25 lbs i got back up to 227.. that was as of 2007... after the birth of my son i've been working on my weight loss EVERSINCE!!... that was 2008.. so its been a long hard road.. anyway.. if you need anything i'm here :) 

Isn't it crazy how full you can feel on so few calories? I too find myself forcing myself to eat when I'm not hungry because I'm afraid of eating too few calories. When I eat well, it feels like I'm eating all day but still not getting many calories. Your dinner looks amazing by the way! I'm going to have to check out that recipe :-) 

I do the same and don't always get to my 1700 cal a day b/c I just can't eat anymore. I wonder, if you eat when you are hungry, eat healthy, and till you are full, can you still put your body into starvation mode if you don't reach your calories? It does not make since to me. If my body feels full and I continue to eat are I not just over eating? 

Thats my question too skinny girl. It seems counterproductive to force myself to eat, but it also seems counterproductive to eat too few calories. My first instinct is to listen to what my body says, but id hate to sabotage my plan as a result! Otto, The recipe was awesome. I used fat free cream cheese though, and mixed in some crushed garlic and red onion instead, it was delicious and even lower in calories than the recipe is. I remember seeing a show where they showed a plate of fast food on one table, then the caloric equivalent of it on another table with healthy food. The volume of food on the healthy table was incredible! Naiomy, your success is incredible! I hope I can someday insp ire people as you have inspired me :)