So this is what I'm learning by not getting on the scale...I don't need it to know when I've gained weight...I ate too much the past two weeks, and yep I got thicker through the middle. Don't need a scale to tell me that. I also don't need it to tell me when I'm losing fat...I stopped eating too much and my middle is getting thinner. Also don't need the scale to know.
What I am learning is to pay attention to how I feel, and make adjustments based on how I feel. Eat when I FEEL hunger, stop when I FEEL satisfied. Eat food that I know will make me healthier, don't eat food that doesn't make me healthy. And only eat what I need to feel satisfied, that's all. Pretty simple, right?
Well, huh, not so simple when you are having feelings that interfere with your communication with your body. I started the hormone replacement (estrogen and progesterone) last Thursday, and I cannot believe the difference in how I feel. It's remarkable, and looking back on it, I was in pretty bad shape emotionally. I had other symptoms, like hot flashes (which caused a lack of sleep), anxiety, fuzzy thinking, inability to lose weight, and just a general feeling of YUCK.
Now that I am feeling better, it is much easier to focus on a positive and healthy way of eating. My desire for cookies is gone. Tonight I made salmon, sautéed spinach, and cauliflower and had such a lovely meal. I thought about each bite, and enjoyed it so much. I even poured myself a small glass of wine to go with it.
As nice as this all sounds, it's not possible when your mind is not in the right place for it. there are things that interfere...for me it was mostly hormonal, although my job isn't making any easier, and the men in my life, welllll....but it all seems to be in perspective now. I have hope again, and I was pretty scared.
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