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I still have a way to go but I have never felt better about myself! I didn't realize just how much being overweight depressed me. I've never had high self esteem but it really was at an all time low being overweight. Now I look in the mirror and I see a person that has made a huge accomplishment; losing weight was something that other people could do not me. Now that I've stopped all the crazy diets and changed the way I eat I'm really doing something good for myself.
I wanted people to recognize my efforts; having lost 10, 15 then close to 20 lbs and no one said I word I started to feel discouraged. I realized that it didn't matter if I lost 50 lbs and nobody noticed I'm doing it for me. Quite frankly now that people have started to notice at my job and they tell me that I am "stepping it up" it embarrasses me. They say that I'm stepping it up because when I was depressed I didn't care about my appearance not that I'm more concerned about it now but I can fit my old clothes again. Things I wear every summer people think are new outfits, it's funny. I'm still in the 170's I'm not skinny super model but I'm working on it and for the first time in a long time I'm happy about me!
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