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Well, just a few more days til i'm out of camp. Anyone still with me? I feel so disconnected from the real world out here. I have been feeling pretty down on myself the past few days, pudgy, bloated. Ate two double chocolate cookies tonight. And a puff wheat square... and a piece of chocolate pudding cake. Binge.. I am back in that cycle of eating where what you eat doesn't give you proper energy, and when I feel lethargic, my instinct is to eat, and it just repeats like that. Sugar rise, crash, rise, crash. I hate it, but the food choices are not great.
I think I need to bring a scale up here, because I need the motivation I get from fluctuations. daily reality checks instead of bi-weekly reality checks. So easy to get off track, especially with the food here. Everything has sauce on it, or is a sandwich, or is a processed product. I was eating scrambled eggs for the first few weeks until I found out that they pour the egg product out of a jug. What the eff is so hard about cracking a few eggs? Ugh. So now I pretty much subsist on bacon, salad,yogurt (which is the added sugar kind, unfortunately) and apples. Plus whatever sauce-slathered protein they serve up at dinner. Can't wait to get out, this set has been very long. To add extra challenge, I'll be travelling the entire three weeks out, but everyone I'm going to see understands I'm a bit of a health nut now and won't mind me being a picky eater. Need to detox.
Despite how big I've been feeling, I took measurements today and they are roughly the same as when I came in... 31 waist and 41 hips, so maybe I'm not as bad off as I thought. All my clothes still fit, but I tell myself I've stretched them. :P No more binges though. Going to spend my last few days trying to clear my system of bad things as best I can from here. Lots of tea and vegetables. I hope I haven't set myself back too far. I'm still running 3-5 days a week, about 5k each time. It's been a challenge as it gets dark here about 7pm and I get off of work at 6pm. Today I had to resort to running laps in the gym, which wasn't s bad as I thought it would be!
I bought a Bodymedia Fit that should be delivered the day after I get back!! Pretty excited about using it to see how much calories I burn doing my job, which is pretty much on my feet 12 hours a day. I'm hoping seeing how much calories I actually burn on a daily basis will help my refocus on my goals. I should be at 160 by the end of the month, but I don't think I'll be there. I'll be happy to be under 170 by then, but again, I'll have to see how far I slipped while in camp.
I'm off to read your journals and see how you're all doing! :) Hope everyone is well!
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