MommaDukes86's Journal, 17 Sep 20

I do pretty well with my eating habits.... usually. But I am a binge eater. And as much as I have improved, I still slip every now and again. I make sure there isnt any junk food in the house so if I do slip, it's not as bad. Well, my husband is not a healthy eater. He is 6ft and 308lbs. He has also been overweight his entire life like me. Difference is that he is ok with it. I am not. Well he is a fast foodie. Meaning he eats fast food almost everyday. Last night he ordered an xl half pepperoni powerhouse half 4 meat pizza from five star pizza. Yall .... I tried. But I caved. He offers it to me so casually as if he didnt know I have a serious problem with food addiction. I ate 3 damn pieces.☹ I'm not ok. I'm so ashamed of myself. Why cant I resist? I can do 40 hr fasts no problem, but as soon as junk food sneaks it's way into my home I cant say no. Ugghhhhhh. I really wish he would get on board. It would make it a whole lot easier to stick to eating clean. For the first time in 6 months, I ate over my 1500 cal limit. Usually I eat around 900 cal a day. I'm never starving and I feel great. But today my stomach is angry. I feel like poo. And I'm not ok.☹ Tomorrow is a new day. Looks like I have some extra exercise in my very near future.

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I understand your feelings. I used to have eating issues too. the important thing for you to recognize is that you said you want to get healthy and be healthy. So what if you go off your plan a day, call it a cheat day and like you said go back to your plan the next. You are getting healthy for you. Many times I've heard about couples who are in your position and the next thing you know your example gets the other rolling with you. Keep your spirits up. We're here with you. I've found affirmations for me that build me up and when I feel that devil trying to pull me down I read them and believe them!  
17 Sep 20 by member: Cailinlass
You are doing great. One day will not wreck a good plan. I can't pass on some foods. Pizza is one of them. Just dust yourself off and get back to business :)  
17 Sep 20 by member: kattay
Next time he does that, and he will, go ahead and enjoy the toppings and throw out the crust. It's important to have a plan for the sabotage scenarios so that you already know what you are going to do. You got this! 
18 Sep 20 by member: Bird Fancier
For my journey, continuing the food log even on binge days and limiting to 3,500 calories rather than not tracking calories (7,000-10,000 maybe?) is a victory for me. For most people here that would not be success, but going from severe overeating to less severe overeating is still going in the right direction for me. 
18 Sep 20 by member: me,myselfandi
We're so hard on ourselves! You ate more than you wanted one day out of 180 ... that sounds like overall success to me. Today's a new day! Sending you good vibes. 
18 Sep 20 by member: cb27713
Sorry for your stress! My husband is 6’7 & 220. Lean with bony legs & knees. With a heart condition. I have to watch to make sure he eats. He has been so good with not eating fast food esp McDonald’s when we’re out & about & neither of us is out alone rarely. I cook rice, pasta, & potatoes for him only!! He needs carbs to stay out of hospital. I simply don’t eat them. I plan my meal without substitutes if vegetables. Usually salad. I’m losing wt so slowly & must move or lose 0. So it’s okay. Relax & breathe & start today new!!! It’s an ongoing struggle & fight but we will win!!🍀 
18 Sep 20 by member: SB 428
You plan on going your whole life without eating pizza and if you eat 3 pieces of pizza you are ashamed? Sounds to me that you need to rethink your way of eating and make it something sustainable for life that allows you to have pizza- not necessarily 3 slices-but even if it was half the pizza- to not feel bad about it and get back to a deficit the next day. Enjoy all food in moderation. 900 calories a day- unless you are 4' tall- is just not doable or healthy in my opinion.  
18 Sep 20 by member: davidsprincess
Also—-lol. Interested in your fasting. I’m at my 16 now & trying to prolong it. Told hubby I’ll cook. Breakfast around 9:30 to eat at 10. That’ll put me at 18. I want to eat 2 meal counts at one time then eat dinner by 3. Trying. Winter almost here & with asthma can’t go out in cold air. Could have an attack. So need adjustments for winter. You make it sound easy. When you do eat it’s keto so neat & veg or eggs & bacon right?🍀 
18 Sep 20 by member: SB 428
I never feel guilty or bad , I use to , but not anymore about eating foods I should not, I call it a Carb rebuild day, sometimes your body requires extra carbs to get the body moving again, you can not live your whole life without some pleasure foods !!! I just eat them and move on !!!! And you can to !!! 
18 Sep 20 by member: DO N OK
Some advice for your husband .I was just under 300 lbs. I'm in my mid 60s now and my knees are giving out. If he continues to eat with no restrictions he will have to make the same choice I am mow forced to make. He can either walk or eat in access . He will not be able to do both. My knees now have permanent damage partly due to my weight.  
18 Sep 20 by member: Keith Skelly
I understand about a binge...it’s not that I eat pizza but that I eat too much. That I lose control and don’t listen to my stomach. That there will be all the awful feelings after, physical and emotional and I still do it. Sending love and support ❤️ 
18 Sep 20 by member: Rckc
Rethink your ideas about the occasionally off-plan eating. The most important thing is to get back to YOUR plan and let him have HIS plan. I understand how friggin' hard it is and you can do this. Don't beat yourself up. Give yourself grace and don't feel ashamed. Just be honest and track what you eat because that habit is great tool to self-correct when you've had 3 pieces of pizza, or an extra helping of lasagna, or half of a pan of brownies - whatever it is, track it and move on. 
18 Sep 20 by member: Joelmel
My husband eats many things that would tempt me - we have an agreement. He eats it when I am not present and literally hides it from me. If I do not see it, I do not eat it. 
18 Sep 20 by member: HCB
Thank you all for the support. One of yall asked about my keto... I just try to keep carbs to less than 5% of my food intake a day. Not just bread, pasta, rice etc... but also carbs found in fruits and veggies. As far as eating 900 cals a day not being healthy, i live a pretty physically sedentary life right now due to a heel injury I've been nursing since Jan. If i eat more calories than 900 per day i see a slow increase instead of a slow decrease. I'm losing about half a pound a week right now and that's at 900cal per day. Some days I'll have slightly over or slightly less depending on how I'm feeling. I listen to my body. 
20 Sep 20 by member: MommaDukes86

     
 

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