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I did it again. Perhaps it's good that today most of what I binged on was baby spinach and steamed vegetables. It is increasingly confirmed for me that me alone with food is dangerous. I eat out of boredom and loneliness. I eat because it's there. I eat because I want to taste more. I eat, despite knowing that I shouldn't, because there is a disconnect in my self control. I hear myself saying no, but I just keep going. This is my love/hate relationship with food. I love to cook, and I love how pleasurable the diversity of foods is, but I despise it and myself for the minimal self control I have and the increasing doubt about reaching my goal when I am so close. (Though it seems my goal is slipping away more each day. I really need to work out, but haven't been able to. Therefore frustration is a familiar bedfellow right now and I wish it'd just realize this relationship is no good and it's got to go.) :(
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1585 kcal
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Fat: 54.32g | Prot: 111.98g | Carbs: 176.10g.
Breakfast: Homemade all beef breakfast sausage- 4 oz raw, Steel Cut Irish Oatmeal, egg whites, apple. Lunch: Fish and vegetables in foil, sweet potato, Mixed Salad Greens. Dinner: Normandy style vegetables, baby spinach, bush's baked beans, Spinach whole wheat quesadillas. Snacks/Other: apple, Spicy Thai Chicken Pasta. more...
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