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11.30.22.20.09
I have struggled with my weight almost my entire life. I was a very large baby; not that that really meant anything since based on pictures I evened out and was an average toddler. The earliest memory I have of being the ‘fat kid’ was probably around 2nd or 3rd grade. Whenever it was, I know it was quite early in life. After that I just kept gaining.
I lived in an eat everything on your plate or you don’t get dessert household. Family gatherings revolved around food. We could literally just get done with dinner and grandma would put nuts and cheese and crackers on the table. She would have one more slice of pizza or one more scoop of potatoes or a small amount of whatever left and make someone eat it because she didn’t want to waste a container on that small anoint of leftovers.
I grew up with a mother that was on every fad diet in existence. She was the picture of yo-yo dieting.
It took going to college to allow me to lose weight. I did it effectively because it was very unhealthy, and every visit home I was told how great I looked. I kept that up until I got pregnant with my daughter and decided I had to be healthy for her. It took probably 7 or 8 years to get back to where I was in college.
I was maintaining pretty well until I met my now husband who very much likes to eat and who, like me, lost a lot of weigh in the past, though him significantly more.
Got pregnant with my second child and lost the weight a lot faster because I was making quite the effort with intermittent fasting and a lot of walking. Problem is I fell off the wagon and since September I have been putting it back on and I really need to buckle down because I WILL NOT be the fat girl EVER AGAIN. Now, I have tried being healthy and I will continue a while longer because I keep on being a fatty mcfatfat and eating junk, and eating when I’m not even hungry, but if it comes down to it I will totally OCD on calories and weigh in’s and exercise like I did before.
She says doubting she has that strength and willpower anymore…
View Diet Calendar, 01 December 2022:
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1166 kcal
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Fat: 52.12g | Prot: 44.10g | Carbs: 145.29g.
Lunch: Bare Naked Vanilla Almond Crunch Granola, Dannon Light & Fit Greek Yogurt - Cherry, Del Monte Avocado, Taylor Farms Maple Bourbon Bacon Chopped Kit. Dinner: Pizza with Meat. Snacks/Other: Nonfat Frozen Yogurt (Flavors Other Than Chocolate, Sweetened with Low Calorie Sweetener). more...
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