Just went to the doctor! Going to an eating disorder clinic soon. Also going to get some blood tests. Eaten a bit more today (732 calories and will probably eat something else) which isn't a lot but it is definitely an improvement. I feel really guilty, hopefully, the therapy I am going to get will help. But if anyone can help me with this guilt it would be much appreciated. Going to do some fun dancing to burn off calories. It is summer now and my cousin is coming around for the summer. I haven't seen her for years so I am really looking forward to it. I think it will really lift my mood. Thank you for all the nice comments I will keep you all updated, hopefully I won't have any weight gain if I begin to eat more. We will see, haven't weighed myself for a few days so I will try tomorrow.
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1141 kcal
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Fat: 30.54g | Prot: 36.82g | Carbs: 183.31g.
Breakfast: Weetabix Minis Chocolate Chip. Lunch: Pork Sausage Patty or Link, Polaner Blackberry Jelly, Potatoes (Flesh, with Salt, Boiled), Pork Sausage Patty or Link, Carrots. Dinner: Parmesan Cheese (Grated), Pesto Sauce, Penne, Weetabix Minis Chocolate Chip. more...
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1469 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (brisk) - 6.5/kph - 30 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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I hope that you can feel very good about the progress that you have made. Emotions can be helpful or hurtful. If you have a bad day and eat poorly, it is OK to feel some guilt. Those feelings lead us to make corrections. But, if you are feeling guilt frequently and unjustifiably, it is time for help. Finding that healthy relationship with food is what we all seek. Best wishes for you.
19 Jul 23 by member: Penderg
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💙💙💙 sometimes guilt is the feeling that sits on top of the idea that we are not worthy of self-love.
19 Jul 23 by member: unity1234
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Christina I wish you well. You are a smart girl based on your exam results... (Kudos by the way) Once you internalise that your body machine needs high quality fuel to operate, and that your body cannot grow and thrive on an empty tank, you most certainly can achieve the weight loss that you desire, just in a much slower, controlled and healthy way. Treat your body well and it will be kind to you. As to the whole skinny thing, I get it. It is a curse that I think most women have had to face as we are so harshly judged as being less than when not the idealised standard. Trends change as do the body shapes that go with them. I look at Kim K as an example. In my day, anybody with a ginormous butt was ridiculed. Fast forward 30 years later and people are getting butt implants to get the look. Makes no sense at all.
I would imagine your generation with all of the social media BS have it a million times worse. The joke of it is, once you reach a certain age, looks are entirely meaningless. Visit a long term care facility some day and you'll see what I mean. Having a healthy body on the other hand.....priceless in the short and long term.
19 Jul 23 by member: Annisworkingonit
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Don't go off of how you look in the mirror. As a teenager it is not an accurate assessment. Avoid social media, it's not real. Most pictures are filtered or edited. Your doctors can help you find your healthy weight range for your age. Food is fuel to keep you alive and healthy. Weight fluctuates daily, so don't punish yourself with the ups and downs. Listen to the advice of your doctors and therapist as you go forward.
19 Jul 23 by member: allyups
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Glad to hear you're getting help hun. Remember, baby steps. You've already taken steps to getting better, and it won't happen overnight. Be kind to yourself, don't let that brain of yours make you feel bad. Feeding your body is important for several reasons, especially growing into a beautiful young woman. Society, and it's messed up ideas of "skinny = beauty" is the worst thing for girls growing up. But I want you to know ... I am JEALOUS of you. You have a beautiful smile, a sweet, caring disposition, a brilliant mind (you kicked butt on exams!) and perhaps you don't or can't believe it, but you are VERY pretty. I am proud of you for reaching out and getting help. Love & hugs.
19 Jul 23 by member: CarbAbuser
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You've been very mature about deciding how to deal with the various challenges that have come your way. May your moments of happiness sustain you!
19 Jul 23 by member: Burnitu9
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