cristinaxxs's Journal, 12 Aug 23

Christina's, you are a Beautiful young lady inside and out! I pray that you will feel the love and support of those here and those around you. Please know that recovery is possible with the right help. I'm so glad that you are seeking that with your Mum's help and support. You are Valued and Loved!  

Don’t Give Up!! 

Christina, have fun at your concert. Food is just a small part of our entire life right. I commend you for trying to get a handle on it at such a young age. I pray that you get the help and support you need to turn the thoughts around in your head to healing thoughts. You have a lot to be happy for. You are intelligent, pretty, loved and have your whole life ahead of you. Yes, i had an operation to remove the excess skin i had left over from a lifetime of fighting with food. I so dont want that for you. Many have said it, find a way of eating that is healthy and sustainable. Not a diet. A way of life. Ive starved myself, binged myself, tried to exercise my calories away pretty much you name it but for a few things. My life is very full and filled with happiness and loved ones and friendships. I want the same for you. You have a sweet, good heart my love. 

Please love yourself. make yourself a priority. You are not what you weigh. my whole life, 67 years, I have struggled with my weight. My mom put me on my first diet at 5. Dieting is an industry. No one can give you a formula to follow. You have to learn to eat what you love within limits. It is a marathon, not a race. I refuse to eat something I hate because it is low calorie. know you are worth it and take pride you are doing this. the scale only shows a snapshot of your accomplishment. you can enjoy your life and eat. and especially ignore the negative, whether it comes from another person or your own head. you have got this!!!! 

Don't feel that way it's not a bad thing to gain weight if your doing a good job it's part of live you eat a little you gain a little weight Love your self, it's not worth crying about, sending lots of love and support. BE POSITIVE!! 🥰🥰🥰 

Hi Cristina, I was writing a long comment which got erased. So here’s another. I’ve been where you are. I know firsthand how physically and emotionally painful it is to be struggling with this. I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s great that you’re already working to climb out from an unhealthy place. There is a lot of great advice and information already written here. In my early 20s, when things were at their worst, I was convinced I would never get well. My weird relationship with food went back as far as I remembered maybe 3 or 4 years old. While food and my body image are far from perfect, I’m a “healthy” (medically) weight haha. I also have nearly 100% been able to avoid binging, purging, restricting, and obsessively exercising for the past 10 years. It’s far from perfect (perfection is subjective and thus a myth!), but nothing like the life consuming obsession it was for the first 20+ years of my memorable life. My eating disorder won out for decades. I will likely always manage the health consequences which came from it. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone else. Here are some things that helped me in no particular order I worked with an ED specialist/psych in my early 20s, I was on a lot of meds for a time, and fewer now. He also told me about intuitive eating, which was terrifying but also liberating Not weighing myself/only weighing myself once a month or at the doctor’s Finding a physical and/or creative outlet that I enjoyed and was passionate about Music Reading: Geneen Roth books on emotional eating and Jenette McCurdy “I’m glad my mom died.” Connecting with animals and nature  

So sorry you are feeling so distraught. When you are ready, you will get a hold of your feelings and then continue on making progress toward your goals. There are many here that ate in it with you. What happened even a few hours ago is in the past now. Use past memories of successes(I know you have worked hard) to feed your determination today. Come stay in the now. This is where all of the action happens. Remember to know that many here know your pain in this disappointment and are rooting for you as you gather your strength and begin again. 

When I feel like you do right now, I pause and write down 20 things I am grateful for. Today is a new day and a new beginning. Love and nurture yourself. If you have some inner peace, it will get easier to take care of your nutritional needs.  

I have reported jimsturling.  

me too Shirley  

Food is necessary for life! Being too thin causes health problems also. Don't be so hard on yourself! Remember you are beautiful! Be healthy and make healthy choices! 

Just a temporary glitch. Learn from it and soldier on. You are more than just a number on a scale. Hugs.