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Of course, the day yesterday couldn't have finished nice, the way it started!!!... So... hmmm where to start....
So... I ended up having BBQ -half a burger + chips- here at work yesterday... my calories were already high... right from work we had to drive to the gym to have them reimbourse us our money that they took by mistake... and after fixing that... the BAD part #1 comes... we went to McDonald's ... I was so bad, had large fries & 6pc Chicken McNuggets... oh my... but that was the only good thing that happened yesterday... good mentally, because physically, I am 1.5 lbs up since yesterday... but I assume TOM has his fingers in it as well... lol
Well since my bf's inner ear tumor surgery (10 months ago) he is not working... the car needed to be fixed, so he bought the parts... and we decided to go last night and try to change the part...(stupid idiots, who does that after the whole day things were going wrong?!) some stupid screw was so rusty and impossible to unscrew, it broke... whatever that thing is... it's holding the wheel in some way... so... we try to save money and fix things on our own and we end up not having a car now! (BAD thing #2)
... and this morning I ended up taking the bus... almost 1hr and 3 transfers... life sucks you would think! But no... today I feel better, I don't know why, because I took the bus? Got up at 6:15am instead of 7:15am... walked to the bus stop (my bf walked me) and took some fresh air.. or because I ended up listening to my iPod... I don't know, whatever it is, it worked out well... and I am awake and happy.
Life is weird, today, I think that; the more things, comfort and money we have, the worse person we become... it takes a little change in your life to realize that. I feel bad for being the person that I have become with all the changes in my life... with everything positive that happened to me, it changed me, I'm not anymore the person I used to be... I don't like that... life is a rollercoaster... and on every up & down we feel something different...
I am working hard on myself... trying to think, what was I doing before to be the person that everyone loved and also to be loved by myself and have a high self-esteem... will I come back to life?!
I dearly hope so! Do I sound desperate, I hope not... because I am not... this is just weird, I am happy and in love... going thru hard times... am I allowed to be happy, what is the reason... I don't know... I don't need to know the reason if I feel this good.
Happy Thursday everyone... let more happy Thursdays like this one come in the near future... (and have a car fixed lol)
View Diet Calendar, 10 September 2009:
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1151 kcal
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Fat: 51.57g | Prot: 28.16g | Carbs: 146.03g.
Breakfast: french vanilla coffee, neilson milk, special k bar. Lunch: Cheddar Cheese Breton Minis crackers, cream of mushroom. Dinner: mcchicken. Snacks/Other: banana cream pie, apple fruit crumble, Cheddar Cheese Breton Minis crackers. more...
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1853 kcal
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Exercise:
Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 9 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours. more...
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hapiness doesn't come from what we own, it comes from what we have inside. it's easy to get lost in material world, and lean on our "things" to feel happy and safe. it doeasn't mean you are a bad person Mimi. because you realize it and it means that you are not trapped in the vicious circle. we are all more or less dependent of our comfort, and life gives us good lesson once in a while, when we lose something and we realize that we can be happy even though we don't have it anymore! but about the car, it's not good news. fortunately there are buses, I hope you can fix the screw very soon and get your car back. did you try WD40 before taking the screw apart? it's a very helpful lubricant and cleaner. Now, if the screw is broken at it's base, I don't know how you can take it off without making damage to the thread... is you BF a good mechanics?
I have another question: WHY Mc Donald AFTER BBQ? were you still hungry? or maybe the BBQ was at lunch time... anyway, Mc donald is never a good place to eat!! it's ok, now you can take the fries craving out of your mind and go back to healthier food! have a good day!
10 Sep 09 by member: jessyline
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Hey Anne...
Yes he sprayed WD40 for 2-3 days in a row before even touching it... and sprayed yesterday a lot as well.. but the screw was badly stuck in the rust... so he went to see a mechanic this mornig, they are working on it... oh well.. it happens! He reads a lot and finds a lot of hints online on how to do things, his profession is not mechaninc, but he still fixes things well and is always well informed before he proceeds.
Anyways... well, the BBQ was at 11:30 am (I had only 1/2 burger and 1/2 small bag of chips)... McDonald's was around 6pm... lol... so you understand it was not in a row.. lol I would die from so much food...
The McDo... was actually my bf's idea, not mine... he was so depressed and unhappy the whole day, he only gave me an evil smile and said let's go to MCdo... and I can't say no and destroy the little happinness he had in his eyes... so we went... and I don't feel guilty or bad, I would feel so much worse having a loved person unhappy and depressed than the 1.5 lbs that I went up... I know it will go down again and I am pretty happy that I am around my goal weight anyways!
I will have a soup again today and hopefully a light diner.
10 Sep 09 by member: Mirej
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"...large fries & 6pc Chicken McNuggets..." That's not bad at all, that's neutral, even if you did have a little more beforehand. Move right along. I like the third and fourth paragraphs, starting with "Life is weird...," it says a lot about you. No, it does not say that you are desperate at all, it says that you are awake, aware, and conscious of what is *really* going on. The comment about not destroying the happiness in his eye reminds me of the Nat King Cole song ..."the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." :-) Start bringing your weight back down slowly mirej, being very gentle and considerate of yourself.
10 Sep 09 by member: information
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Info, you made me re-read my 3rd & 4th paragraph, even though I read my journal 4-5 times today... I always read a few times... to make sure that what I wrote down makes sense and is really what I meant. I know.. the food is just food... I know my weight will drop again, this is just passing by and the 142.5 lbs are saying "hi" to remind me to stop the McDonald's... and go back to exercising...lol I can do this! ;) I don't know the song, but will look for it eventually... and will think of your words. (= Hey, tomorrow is... Friday! I just put on some nail polish and will go and shower and relax to get myself ready for the last day of the week... for some reason, I like to look nice and beautiful on a different way on Fridays... I don't know why, I should implement that rule in my every day routine and be happy and pretty all the time... live every day as if it was your last day...
10 Sep 09 by member: Mirej
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Song: http://tinyurl.com/lany8o
10 Sep 09 by member: information
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Lyric: http://tinyurl.com/mqm4xd
10 Sep 09 by member: information
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LOL! Re-reading paragraph 4 or 5 times (that sounds vaguely familiar). Friday: I'm sure you look nice every day. Unfortunately the Amazon preview above doesn't have the lines I included but it may remind you of the melody.
10 Sep 09 by member: information
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Wow, that's nice of you, but the links seem to be cut in half and I can't open either page... hmm..maybe send them to me in a pvt msg?
And thanks for the compliment... but I look especially good on Fridays lol... :P
10 Sep 09 by member: Mirej
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Really? They look and work fine on Firefox. I posted them twice so reload the page and check again (let me know if they are working on the site itself now as I am assuming they are working for others when I use this method of posting). I don't know if it's really necessary for Fatsecret to break them at the comment level, but they may not be prepared to handle the extra load. I've used the shortened urls in the past successfully. OK, check the PM I sent to see if the shortened urls work there (they work for me in the copy).
10 Sep 09 by member: information
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Info.. I didn't get a pvt msg... and I already tried myself to put on someone's journal a link and the url was broken, it would not work...
Oh well... c'est la vie!
11 Sep 09 by member: Mirej
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Strange, they are in my outbox but I sent them again just for the heck of it. I'm really surprised that they are not in your inbox. Anyway, it's not a big deal at all. C'est la vie! :-)
11 Sep 09 by member: information
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