Okay, so am this point I'm down about 14 lbs. I'm wondering what it would have been like if I'd done this three years ago. But at the same time, I would not have the same experience and journey of attempting (and hopefully succeeding) in losing 50 lbs.
I'm at such a weird place in my life where things are really confusing and hard. I ended my engagement a year ago. I'm about to graduate with my bachelor's of science (not a bad thing, but I still have to complete grad school).
I have been feeling so confused and alone and out of control. And losing weight is something that I feel in control of finally. Something I can change. And hopefully this can reflect the rest of my life.
I can overcome my depression. I can find love with someone who deserves me. I can lose weight. I can be happy.
I can do it. So I guess, in a way, I'm happy I gained the weight. Because losing it (or beginning to) has showed me that I do have control over my life, and one day everything is going to be okay, and I can have all of the things I want for myself
but I have to take care of me and be patient. daily work. daily effort.
View Diet Calendar, 10 February 2016:
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1365 kcal
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Fat: 36.62g | Prot: 46.65g | Carbs: 218.01g.
Breakfast: Great Value Kosher Dill Pickle Spears. Lunch: Bananas, Rao's Homemade Vodka Sauce, Buitoni Mixed Cheese Tortellini. Dinner: Granny Smith Apples, Rao's Homemade Vodka Sauce, Buitoni Mixed Cheese Tortellini. Snacks/Other: Einstein Brothers Bagels Whipped Strawberry Reduced Fat Cream Cheese, Einstein Brothers Bagels Honey Whole Wheat Bagel, Living Essentials 5-Hour Energy Drink. more...
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2220 kcal
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Exercise:
Studying - 2 hours, Driving - 3 hours, Resting - 11 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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