Mirej's Journal, 07 Dec 09

Hey girl. It makes me a little sad to see all this negativity coming from you, but what the heck, let it all out. You can't always be positive :). Don't worry....it will all pass. I know that spending xmass without your family sucks but you're going to have your bf by your side, which makes it a little better (I hope) As for new years...you and your love should pack your bags and come spend it here in NY with us. (and I'm not kidding)  

hang in there chicky.........this is the worst time of the year, whether it's with the family or not.....it's dark more than it's light..it's cold and dry....and everyone has a cold!. but spring is coming.....every second that passes, every hour that goes by and every day means we are one step closer to spring....to change...to hope & faith!  

hey Mimi, don't lose hope, never. things are meant to change, sometimes for worse and sometimes for better. I know how it's hard to feel good when the weather is cold and dark. I experience that often. I don't have any plan neither for christmas. my friends and family are 10000 kms away, and I feel totally disconnected from all the christmas thing. it's just a day, you don't need to be busy buying tons of gifts and have a huge turkey to spend a good christmas. your family is in your heart, that is what matters. you are not alone! take care 

Thank you all three for nice and positive comments, I needed to let it out and I am glad that I'm not the only one who thinks this way. I know it will be better, but it's just very exhausting to go thru the same shit every day and see no changes... sometimes I get that negative that I lose the will to live... I ask myself, what for?... I don't know. I am doing a bit better today... I think so at least... nothing spectacular but hanging in there. I know, the fact that I don't need to buy gifts is nice, but that's all... My mom is also in hospital and had a surgery... so I'm a bit worried since I live quite far and am unable to see her... I am just waiting for the weekend...  

i understand how you feel about your mom. everytime the phone is ringing, I'm scared to hear that something happened to my parents or sister. it is very hard to be so far from them. I hope everything will be ok with your mom. keep faith Mirej.  

Thx again Anne... my mom came home today, hopefully all is good. She is still young she is only 41 lol... so yea! She is strong. Thx.. I guess after this season is over I will feel better. :)