You'll get through this girl... look how far you've come out of the whole mess already! I can remember you feeling hopeless, but it wasn't as bad as you orginally thought! Getting off track is bad, but not getting back to it is even worse. Don't let yourself go now Shelly! I know you still want to meet your goal, not only to look even more wonderful than you do now but think how much healthier you will be! Just work on it girl, get your affairs in order and then focus on getting back on track. It's no easy task but I think you are stronger than you think and I know you can do it if you will just put your mind to it. After a few days, the food cravings will decrease and things will get easier, I promise =D