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It is getting so much harder to pass up the temptations that life throws at you! The holiday season sucks when it comes to food! Every year starting at Thanksgiving our supplies at work all bring in goodies.....pretty much everyday and it is so hard when you see all that yummy looking food laying around and everyone else scarfing it up...this morning I was in the break room with all this food and all these people eating it and there I was cutting up a grapefruit for breakfast, they all commented on how much will power I have, but at the same time I just wanted to dive right in along side of them! I have been doing great, like I said about 97% following the eating portion, I did take a peak this morning on the scale just to see if this is paying off and in 4 days I have lost almost 4lbs, (yahhoo!!!) so it is working and I am very excited! Can't wait till the 10th day to see just how good it is working!
This weekend is going to be tough, we have hockey tickets for tonight and tomorrow nights games, so I am going to try to eat before we go and just drink water, I can do this! Only 5 more days of detox then I can relax for a few days for Thanksgiving.
I feel great and have been sleeping awesome lately, but emotionally I am a wreck again...today is 3 months since my niece passed away and I had a huge break down yesterday, I miss her so much and the pain gets harder and harder! Just when I feel like I am starting to get things on track something comes up! Each year at Christmas we do a donation thing though my work to United Way, this year we have someone coming in from Hearts and Horses, which is an organization that my Niece was involved in and she loved every minute of it, when I heard that it just smacked me down again...made me realize that I am just putting my feelings aside and trying to pretend that I am on the right track...sucky! But I do know this is a great cause and I will donate this year no matter what! Thanks for letting me speak my mind again, it is so great to be able to do this with out being judged!!! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! Keep up the great work!
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