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So, I am averaging 11 pounds lost each month and I am happy with that. If I stayed consistent to that rate, that would put me at my goal weight towards the end of January. That, too, would be okay. However, I know weight loss tends to slow down as you move down in weight. Diet, exercise, strength training all has to be adjusted in order to keep the process headed along. And my impatience often makes me bitter instead of joyful for what I’ve accomplished. I just wish there was a way to fast forward to January to see where I am. I am still quite heavy and look terrible. When I run on the treadmill, it sounds like an elephant and startles people next to me. My former plump legs and arms are now squishy and floppy. Physically I look worse right now than when I started because the fat loss is making me soft and droopy. I know it takes time and this is just a transitional phase but oh, boy, it can be difficult to bear. This is really hard work. This is emotionally and physically straining and the process seems likely it’s going to stretch on endlessly over the horizon. I have faith that it will all be worth it and that the end will eventually come. But today, I’m fat and dumpy and weak and it’s hard to see myself being anything but.
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99.8 kg
Lost so far: 15.4 kg.
Still to go: 36.3 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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steady weight
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