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reasons why i'm losing weight:
a) health. my father has adult onset diabetes from eating sugar and high fat foods. he ate this bad food for comfort since he dislikes his job and his station in life. as if having diabetes wasn't enough, his bad habits continued and, in the midst of his self-destruction, ate himself to a new disease: peripheral neuropathy. he's in constant pain now. that's a fate i'd rather avoid. i like the idea of being fit in my lifetime. i know it's possible, i just have to keep taking one more step each day. it's hard, especially when people 1/4th my size are eating twice as much and it's all junk food. sometimes envy gets the better of me. living healthy is it's own reward, so i need to focus on that message.
b) appearance. since i was a kid, i've been taught that fat is unattractive. i know some people like being heavy and have a positive body image related to that, but that boggles my mind. i have a vague image of what i want my body to ultimately look like and the one i have now is nowhere near that. also, i look forward to buying clothes in normal stores and dressing nicer, rather than having to head to the fattie (sorry, big & tall) store and get clothes.
c) attracting the opposite sex. this ties into reason b, strongly, but there is a reason why it becomes another category. i want to attract women who are confident and are willing to stay fit and take care of their bodies. if i want that in a woman, i have to ask it of myself. so i wish to take care of my body and become fit in order to find a woman who has that goal in her mind constantly. i've been around women who are happy giving up, eating bad food, sneering at exercise, drinking, and smoking to excess. it's not attractive. eating right and working out is.
d) self-love. this is an important reason. taking care of one's self is equal to loving one's self. burying yourself with a sedentary lifestyle and choking yourself with bad food is working toward a slow form of suicide. why kill yourself slowly and painfully that way? it must come from negative emotions and self-hatred. i'm still working past my own self-hatred but knowing that i have a weight goal and a positive attitude allows me to love myself enough to continue. i may falter, but i have to keep believing.
e) inspiring others. when i started this, i was eighteen inches wider in the waist. people look to that and it makes me feel even better for having this goal. they are influenced to live healthier in turn. not every one of my friends does this, but if i can extend this mentality to one of them, then i've made a big difference. it's the domino effect.
there are others. i'm tired of writing now, but believe that i'm going to lose 150 lbs before the end of next year.
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