IB1hotmomma's Journal, 01 Mar 10

This weekend I visited a girlfriend and spent two days watching myself in the floor to ceiling mirrors that surround her dining room. I actually looked at my body for the first time in a very long time and needless to say, I was VERY unhappy with what I saw. All too often I pass a mirror without ever looking into it, and when I am in front of a mirror to get ready, I find that I focus only on my eyes because the rest is too hard to take in. All of this realization just made me feel miserable, so I decided to stuff myself so that "full" was what I felt instead. Last night was the final straw as I sat in a McDonalds and I caught my reflection in the glass..the miserable "fat girl" stuffing my feelings into my face by way of a double cheeseburger. I can't continue to live this way, I WON'T continue to live this way. There is always a moment when you can turn it all around, and that moment is now.

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1578 kcal

Fat: 38.21g | Prot: 107.96g | Carbs: 216.10g.   Breakfast: low sugar apple oatmeal. Lunch: healthy choice roasted beef merlot, fat free milk, strawberries, orange, banana. Dinner: sliced tomato, sargento light provolone, alternative bagel, boars head hickory smoke turkey, laughing cow light, arnold thin. Snacks/Other: nectarine, light string cheese, green giant broccoli and cheese sauce. more...