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28 May 2013

Well I was bad this weekend. I'm not proud of myself. I had a big fat splurge over Memorial Day weekend and I paid for it on the scale. Friday morning I was 249.2 and by Tuesday morning I am 254.4. I am back on track today and am about to go out and get something for lunch. I know the next week or so will be hard but I've just got to push thru it.

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
115.4 kg	6.2 kg	45.1 kg	Poorly

(6 comments) Gaining 0.6 kg a Week

24 May 2013

TGIF!! It's going to be a long day. Always is the Friday before a 3 day weekend. I'm PMS-ing so bad. Trying to not be emotional and let my emotions make me want to binge. I used to do accounting. I've worked for our Home Health company for 2 years and they sold us in December. Well the new company came in and I thought I would lose my job because they do all of the accounting in OK City. Well they hired me but they hired me to do Marketing for the company. So I go to senior centers and doctors offices promoting our company and trying to get patients signed up for our Home Health Services.

Well I have a quota. I have to get 10 new patients a month and whatever I get over that I get a bonus for. Well the first 2 months were great. Met and exceeded my quota and had some nice bonuses..... but.... in April I only got 8 and this is May 24 and I only have 5. So for 2 months in a row now I will not have met my quota unless by some miracle I get 5 more admitted by the end of this month.

I've tried to not let it stress me but I guess yesterday it just all hit me at once. Combine that with PMS and it equals Me - sitting in my car in front of Chicken Express bawling my eyes out and feeling like I am going to have an anxiety attack. Jobs are few and far between here in SE Oklahoma and even if I find one I'll be lucky to make $10-$12 an hour when I make alot more than that now. How will I pay my new ATV payment? Will I even get unemployment if they fire me? I'm not much of a salesman. Yes I'm nice and friendly and I will pick up one or two here and there at the senior centers but most of the doctors are already giving all their referrals to one of the home health companies. We have at least 12 home health agencies that cover our county and it's not a big city at all.

So I'm not going to lie, it did cross my mind to feed my pain. To just have something delicious yet bad for me. Cookies or Mashed Potatoes and Gravy but I didn't. I got my cry out and I went into chicken express and ordered 2 chicken strips and a large water. I peeled most of the breading off and ate my chicken. I feel better. We've been poor before and we can do it again. We might lose some of the luxuries like Dish or Internet but somehow even if I have to get two jobs I will pay for that ATV because I don't want to ruin my credit. It's not in the best of shape as it is and it's finally turning around for the better so I won't let it get bad again.

Anyways, sorry to unload on everyone. Even if no one reads this it feels good to let it all out.

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22 May 2013

I'm 2 more pounds down. Happy Dance! I bought 2 new pair of jeans today. They were on Clearance at Cato's. They are a size 20. :) I wear a 22. Now Cato's jeans tend to run a little bigger so I know that 20 is probably closer to a 22 in other brands. Still though, I can tell my stomach is flatter and it feels good to get new jeans. I wear an XL T-shirt to work most days. I had them made for my job. I do marketing for a home health company and I had my company name put on some T-shirts so I can be a bit more casual this summer. Anyways some of them were snug on my belly and I would have to stretch them out a bit every morning. Well no more. 17 pounds means my shirts are a little looser. I'm going to keep on going. This girl is on FIRE!

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20 May 2013

I did lose 3.6 pounds this past week. I know that is good but it can seem a little disappointing after losing 12 the first week. I'm not stressing though. 15 pounds in 2 weeks is AMAZING!

Okay, Wedding Saturday. I looked beautiful. There, I said it and I don't usually give myself compliments but I really, really did. The girl that did my hair did an amazing job. Now my body... well, I didn't like that part, but my dress was flattering to my figure. It had an emperor waist line so it hid any belly rolls. My arms are HUGE. Never realized how big they are, but losing 15 lbs I can already see less cellulite on them.

Cake - I DID NOT eat it!!! Yay!!! I didn't even really want it. I was even the person who cut it up for everyone and didn't even lick my fingers. :D Now on the food I did cheat a little bit I guess. They had bbq, potato salad, pinto beans, and rolls. I had some chopped brisket with a little bitty bit of bbq sauce and maybe 1/2 a cup of pinto beans and a pickle. I know the sauce and pinto beans weren't really induction appropriate but at least the beans had plenty of fiber in them.

Have a great week everyone!!!

Weight:	Lost so far:	Still to go:	Diet followed:
114.8 kg	6.8 kg	44.5 kg	Reasonably Well

(3 comments) Losing 1.6 kg a Week

15 May 2013

Well the scale says I have lost 2 more pounds but I really want to start weighing in here weekly so I'm going to wait until Monday to record it. I think I have got thru the "Atkins Flu" and it really wasn't bad this time around. My energy levels are even, I have no cravings, and I am honestly not even hungry! Whoot! Whoot! Let's hope that stays with me thru this weekend and I leave the wedding cake alone.

Have a great day everyone!!!

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